I'm too sad about too many things
I'm sad about having to give up my relationship with my dad who I love very much, at least for the time being. I'm sad about betraying myself and for losing trust in myself on every basis. I'm sad about losing trust in the world, in people and in the future. I'm sad about taking so much time to figure things out that it cost me everything that my life could have been at this point. I'm sad at how things were in my life. I live in constant mourning man. I really do and this is me figuring out how to process it instead of just numbing it down.