A Tight Squeeze in my Chest

    Continuing with my overall gloomy mood. Hah, it's probably because I haven't drawn much in a while - I always start losing spirit when I don't. Zelda was great, but it is like a drug, addictive, great when I'm in the middle of it, and as soon as I return to the real world and I feel even more miserable than before. But it's fine, it's not like I'd rather not experience Zelda. Just part of the ups and downs of this lifestyle.

    Talking about ups... and downs. When I'm in this mood I feel a tight squeeze in my chest, as if my heart was sitting in an uncomfortable position and was getting sore. This soreness tends to build up slowly until I reflexively blurt out, inside my thoughts or talking out loud, that I want to die. I don't really do though. And I mean it, I don't feel like dying. The "I want to die" combination of words just seem to alleviate my inner discomfort for a while. Like letting the steam out of a pressure pot. Which is odd and funny if you ask me.

    I've also been feeling physically tired, probably because of me bordering on a depressive mood. That and me neglecting physical exercise, with Zelda probably making me move even less than I'd normally would. I have in my mind to resume exercising as soon as I can, although the idea of subjecting myself to pain is not very attractive when I'm already feeling gloomy hahah. I'd love to go trekking or something of the like though, despite the price that I'd have to pay - which is me getting very tired physically and mentally from the whole experience, and needing a few days to recover.